i met the girl that tore one of my photos out from the school exhibition yesterday.
she is right that it was disgusting, a hanged dog, for shit's sake. however, she should have come to talk to me before that. it showed disrespect to my work, after all.
and im still offended by the attitude one of my friends showed me yesterday. as the matter of fact, the thing that annoyed me the most was that she wasn't sure that she was right, but tried to persuade me that i was wrong. if it was true, i would not deny it, i am just always trying to be impartial and objective.
but she wasnt trying to convince me of the opposite thing that i was sure was true. she was trying to make me believe that i am not objective.
and i am too high-flown, recently even touchy, and everything seems to wound my self-esteem. i feel terrible realizing it.and i am festered by the fact that somebody has managed to insult me.i believed that i was unflappable and strong, but i saw that it was nothing like that.
now, after i wrote all these things nobody will read, i feel calmer.